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May. 28th, 2009 @ 09:52 am (no subject)
seems a bit as if everybody apart from me has seen it, I have spoken to a few people in my life and no one is even remotely surprised by the fact that I am now diagnosed and on lithium...

I thought it would be different, I thought people would go "What, you? But You're so normal, man!!"  but ...it feels a bit like that day when Sean told me that he was actually seeing Eva although we were still married and Eva was my best friend (or so I thought) ..I told people, and i was in such a shock, and no one else was even surprised. It pissed me of so badly then, how everybody had known and I didn't have a clue. Now as i look back, I was so in my own little world, already back then..but always hypo, always up in the air somewhere, my head spinning of everything in the world and then a big crash and i'd come down, but just for quick visits. I didn't bring Sean with me at all, it is not so surprising that he had to go with what was more "there" i guess, although fuck them. You don't do that.

And I am not sure if I am cool about all these people telling me how they've known for years and years, but no one has actually come to me to tell me that i need to get on some meds or something.

Anyway, single minded, me? Yes, sorry. It will pass, right now I am just so wrapped around this.
I am getting a few minor side effects from the meds so far, but nothing I can't handle. I hope it wont get worse than this. I hope my mood will lift and that it will all be worth it.
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From:[info]baggyk
Date: May 28th, 2009 08:07 pm (UTC)
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I think this is going to be quite the adventure. We'll get to know you.
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From:[info]a_lost_marianne
Date: May 29th, 2009 09:19 pm (UTC)
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I am scared half to death thinking about that...!

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From:[info]engelskjente
Date: May 29th, 2009 07:22 pm (UTC)
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might sound like a weird thing to say but I am glad you are on the meds.

I noticed you were up and down a lot, although see less of the "down" side on facebook... but on here you seem up and down a whole lot.

I was not aware that you were not on meds, i was on antidepressants so know that there is no stigma, despite what some people think... however... i think that you have now seen someone and you are on those meds and i hope that you do not have to be on them for a long time, and that you will be feeling a little more... "not up and down" as a result :-)
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From:[info]a_lost_marianne
Date: May 29th, 2009 09:19 pm (UTC)
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from what I can tell, the lithium is for life. Now that I stopped, I cant' really go off them, then I will just be sick again, or sick as in constantly either depressed or hypo...

thanks for your comment, I do not post things aobut myself really in facebook, it's so not my kinda place really! :)
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From:[info]engelskjente
Date: June 3rd, 2009 04:22 am (UTC)
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I know what you mean... I am "anonymous" here (apart from the fact that people do know my name on my friends list.. but you know......) and there are so many work people on my Facebook list....

Ironic really as you are more anonymous there in that the name Marianne does not feature :-P
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From:[info]a_lost_marianne
Date: May 29th, 2009 09:24 pm (UTC)
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sorry, should be, now htat I started, not stopped, my head is raising at the moment, I am getting quite a few side-effects from this med, but they tell me it's only for hte first few weeks..
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From:[info]engelskjente
Date: June 3rd, 2009 04:22 am (UTC)
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I knew what you meant, it's OK :-P

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